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[steverogers_awakening]

I think about you all the time. I worry. I worry constantly. I wonder--do I have it in me to try to make you come home? Or at least to try to make you take shelter somewhere where I know you're okay?

I've started so many entries to you, doing just that. Using emotional blackmail. I'm pretty sure I know the words I could use to force your hand, but I always end up deleting them again. It wouldn't be fair, and it wouldn't be right, and I wouldn't ever be able to look myself in the eyes again.

But I'd know you were safe. Maybe knowing you're safe is worth becoming the kind of person I can't respect.

And maybe if I said any of this for real, I would have already crossed that line.

Be safe.




It's my fault, anyway.

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[steverogers_awakening]

What? That I'm not going to let anyone hurt you? You should know that already. You know how I feel about you.

[winterscoming]

You called me Buck.

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I

Oh

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Steve?

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I'm

I have to go.

[winterscoming]

Do you need me?

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I have to go.

[winterscoming]

I understand.